After an unexpected death you will probably feel shocked. Like all the wind is punched out of your stomach, like you want to escape. You may be put off food and feel like your forcing yourself to eat and probably will feel nauseous for a while. If this death is unexpected it will probably will not click this means that you won’t believe it has happened. This may be because you didn’t know that this loved one had a disease or you did know but you didn’t believe it could be fatal or they have unfortunately committed suicide. You may expect them to tuck you into bed or that you will receive a text from them throughout the day, even though in your brain you know this is impossible but in your heart you are still praying. You may want to isolate yourself, not want to be smothered but you have to know that they are just trying to help and are probably going through the same or similar pain you are. You may give yourself tasks to put your mind off it but I personally believe you should face the position you’re in head on as you can’t hide from it forever. You may want to hide, not talk to anyone conceal yourself. You may want to bawl your eyes out, or you may not cry at all it is really personal to you. Me, personally I wanted to scream and I cried for hours and hours, as I discussed earlier most of these feeling that I have put across I have personally felt.
Remember I’m not a professional and i advise if possible you contact someone who can really help.